Shortlisted for the Women’s Prize for Fiction 2022

‘An extraordinary and emotionally immersive novel – the music of Lisa Allen-Agostini’s writing voice is gloriously specific to Trinidad, yet this heart-wrenching story of a woman both liberated and in need of liberation has universal resonance.’—Margaret Busby.

‘Strips you down to raw nerve to build you back up again. Allen-Agostini has an unswerving eye.’—Nalo Hopkinson

‘You dip into the first page and don’t come up for breath until the last… thoroughly enjoyable.’—Kei Miller

Alethea Lopez is about to turn 40. Fashionable, feisty and fiercely independent, she manages a boutique in Port of Spain, but behind closed doors she’s covering up bruises from her abusive partner and seeking solace in an affair with her boss. When she witnesses a woman murdered by a jealous lover, the reality of her own future comes a little too close to home.

Bringing us her truth in an arresting, unsparing Trinidadian voice, Alethea unravels memories repressed since childhood and begins to understand the person she has become. Her next step is to decide the woman she wants to be.